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I just felt like iw as a slave to my husband and kids as a housewife for 12 years. Do U think I will regret leaving. Its been over 17 montghs that I have been doing my thing and a year since I left the house completely. I left my husband after having online love affairs…cyber and video sex and meeting guys while I played on xbox live. Some of these guys were half my age…I am almost 35. My husband bought me out of the house and has the kdis wiht him full time since he though I was a crazy alcoholic and sick to talk wiht teenagers. To which I know that I have issues and i am trying to gain control. I did meet and older friend from middle school that I knew too and he plans on moving here to my area in PA from kansas and we are looking to get a place together to be roomates. He came here over the holidays and found me on faebook. I still talk to guys I met while playing xbox live too and I really care for one of them…he is 18. I did have sex though with the guy I ran into from that I knew from middle school and like i said we plan on being roomates in the summer but it wont be nothing mroe then a friendship I think. There are days when I love my hisband and want to go back but then days wehre I do not want to go back. He is a good man and a great father….but I cant get over the fact that he blackmailed me out of my kdis. (he said if I did not give them to him, he would tell the cops that I was talking to a 17 yr old online sexually)
Theres the short version of my horror story. But do you think that I will regret leaving later? I still do love my husband but I feel like I have a lot to get out of my system before trying to go back. I am usually miserable most the time and I find comfort in knowing that these guys like me….and I do find comfort in knowing if all else fails I can move in with my middle school freind.
Will time make me regret this? I dont mind my life much now but im miserable most the time. I am gettign help and therap now. If my husband moves on wiht someone else…amd I going to hurt more when i see that he has left me for good?